Okay, so when I was in Haiti this last time I asked my Pastor friend what he thought would be the BEST way for me to help the Haitians, I told him that I only have a certian amount of money and that I want to do the best that I can with what I have, so he said he would pray about it and let me know.His answer to me was to start a program, to use the internet and the exposure that I have to "church's,people,business's" that have money to donate to a program that will support one of the many needs in Haiti...So I said okay, let me pray about it!!! and God gave me great faith.I decided to do what he suggested, at first I was a little overwhelmed because I was not thinking on that large of a scale, yes, I have thought about it before, but never really thought I would do it,when I asked him what would be the BEST way I could help I was thinking of with one of the many projects that he has going, you know which one is the closest to getting finished, and could I maybe help him to pay for the rest of it to get done or something like that, but my response to him was a positive one.I have decided to do it. I am so used to everyone saying to me, "Tammy why don't you start small." or "take your time, what is your rush?"that for him to say okay lets GO FOR IT!!! and for him to push me into it, I felt like I was in heaven!!! (in the back of my mind of corse) as first I was freaked out cause I said I can't do this!!! what is he thinking??? and then God told me what he was thinking and I said, okay I'm in!!! I think that he was thinking was,well she asked me what is the BEST way to help and since he knows that I live in the United States and there are wealthy people here that sometimes have more money then they know what to do with, he is thinking Tammy use what you have in front of you to help Haiti since what you have to offer is only yours, and yes it will help alot of people and I know that what I do is good, but I found myself realizing that it really is not the BEST way to help, the BEST way would be to do as much as I can, to get as much as I can, to help as many as I can...So he waisted no time in setting up a meeting and we ended up with alot of people to start with, but at one point, for some reason he asked me how many of the people did I think that I would be able to help and I said about 10 maybe, and he said "no, you have to help them all" Now I know that he didn't mean that I had to help them all out of my pocket, I did at first I guess.I call that my stupid american moment, but anyways, after praying about it, I decided that the reason he is so agressive about getting, so many people, so quickly helped, is because of the desperation of the situation...You know, he must know that out of the 30-40 people that we spoke with maybe only 12 of them might get help, and I am sure that the rush comes from just knowing that in Haiti, TIME can be LIFE...or DEATH...So, I totally get it and I am putting my heart and soul into it, I have no idea what is going to come of it, but I know that God does...I am confident that I am capable, as long as I stay focused...and knowing that my heart and my soul are in it, and that my Savior and Lord is in there too, so I am really psyched to get at it, so please pray for me, please pray for God to send me what I need to make this work because weather I am capable or not is really not the issue.I believe that if God wants this to happen it will happen, and I know that the Bible say's to pray for things, so that is what I am asking from you, for now...K? I'm gonna turn in for the night I have a big day tomorrow a BBQ and a Wedding...
Keep shinning a bright light of hope...
Peace out..
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T.P:O)